TOUGH LOVE

On 12/15/05, JJ Virgin wrote:

"birthday shmirthday
please email me and explain why you want to be 200#
let's get your reasons in writing and your goals clear
step one
and happy birthday
now decide if you want to be 200# or 300#, up to you, no one else
but an BIG Fat gay country line dancer is NOT a pretty site, no matter how
much charisma you have"

WOW...
That is probably the meanest thing you've ever said to me, and ya know what, you're exactly right!!! It IS up to me, and I don't have to settle (nor can I afford to settle) for my old habits. I've been FIRMLY back on track for about a week now and I wonder why I ever settled for how crappy I felt while I was eating sugar! I feel so alert, so alive, so refreshed! I have support in my life now (no, not Leah...there are 3 co-workers who are changing their eating habits with me).

MY GOALS:
1) To regain enough control of my life and eating habits to once again be 235lbs like I was at the end of the show.
THEN, 2) To regain enough control of my life and eating habits to once again be 204lbs like I was just before I lost control of myself. Ya know something, I realized that I was scared to be below 200lbs. That meant that if I ever WERE to go above 200 again, it would be SO MUCH MORE devistating than if I had not gone below 200 to begin with. It's a whole other classification -- there's the fit people, then there's the "over 200's". You know what I mean?
AND THEN, 3) To finally break below 200lbs while bursting through any plateaus I may have encounterd.
FINALLY, 4) To reach my goal of 185lbs with the right BMI and perfect health.

~Michael

sunday, december 18, 2005

(slept until 11:30am, so no breakfast again)

11:45am hot lemon water

1:00pm lunch
5 cups romaine/spinach salad with cherry tomatoes, walnuts, goat
cheese, lemon pepper, sea salt, organic garlic powder, and oil &
vinegar dressing
6oz chopped leftover chicken breast on salad
water

(it was a bad day today personally. you're not gonna like it, but i
didn't have another meal today.)

10:00pm drink
while preparing a test batch of egg nog for a party this coming
thursday, I had 1/2 cup to taste test it.
I prepared this egg nog from scratch with eggs, xylitol, goat's milk
(that's ok, right?), vanilla extract, and a couple tablespoon of rum,
topped with nutmeg. it was not very good. do you have any egg nog
recipe??

~michael

saturday, december 17, 2005

(slept until noon, so no breakfast)

1:30pm lunch at bob's big boy with my mom
charbroiled chicken breast meal (came with 2, i saved one for leftovers)
1 6oz chicken breast
4 cups mixed veggies
water

5:30pm dinner at le petit french restaurant with leah
appetizer was 6 small escargot de bourgogne with butter and parsley (my one splurge)
we split a goat chesse crostini salad with mixed greens, dried pears, and balsamic vinaigrette dressing
6oz roasted chicken breast with herbs de provence (au jus on the side - ended up not using it), and i substituted the pomme frites for seasoned steamed veggies (they only gave about 1/2 cup)
water
(this was a GREAT TASTING MEAL...if I made good choices, is this a place I can go back to??)

12:00midnight bedtime

~michael

friday, december 16, 2005

7:45am hot lemon water

8:15am breakfast
2 scrambled eggs with mushrooms, spinach, tomatoes, and bell peppers
1 cup mixed melons/strawberries
water

12:15pm lunch
1/2 herbed rotisserie chicken (i took off the skin)
steamed veggies (double serving)
water

7:00pm dinner
3 cups romaine/spinach salad with goat cheese, cherry tomatoes, walnuts, lemon pepper, sea salt, and organic garlic powder with oil & vinegar dressing
6oz flank steak fajitas marinated in lemon juice and red, yellow, and orange bell peppers sauteed in olive oil, garlic, lemon pepper, sea salt, and mexican seasoning
1 whole wheat tortilla
1/2 cup organic black beans
2 tbsp greek yogurt to act as sour cream
sparkling water
1 glass wine (gamay beaujolais)

11:30pm bedtime tea
with inositol and 1 stressarrest capsule

~michael

thursday, december 15, 2005 (my birthday!!!)

7:30am hot lemon water
with folic acid drops

8:30am snack
1 choc coated paleobar
water

9:30am breakfast
2 scrambled eggs with spinach, mushrooms, red peppers, and diced tomatoes
1 cup mixed melons & strawberries
water

12:30pm lunch
6oz brisket (no gravy) with 2 cups mixed steamed broccoli and squash
water

7:30pm dinner
dinner salad (removed alfalfa sprouts) with oil & vinegar dressing
I SPLIT THIS WITH LEAH: grill sampler plate at "cat & fiddle" pub and
restaurant, including banger (only 1 bite but NO mash to go with it!),
1 bite bacon, 1/2 sirloin steak, and 1/2 sauteed pork chop (not
breaded), and 1/2 of a really tiny piece of lamb, served with steamed
broccoli, sauteed mushrooms, and grilled tomatoes
wat

er

~michael

wednesday, december 14, 2005

7:15am morning
hot lemon water

*due to an evacuation in our building which caused the cafeteria to be
shut down, i could not get breakfast today. instead, i took an early
lunch.

11:30am lunch
6oz brisket (dry -- no gravy)
double serving mixed veggies (broccoli & squash)
water

7:30pm dinner
6oz grilled chicken breast topped with sun dried tomato pesto sauce
and 2oz mozzerella cheese served on a bed of sauteed spinach, seasoned
with sea salt, pepper, and organic garlic powder
dessert was a greek yogurt parfait (as shown in menu packet) with
flaxseed meal added
1 glass sparkling water

~michael

tuesday, december 13, 2005

8:15am breakfast
2 scrambled eggs with spinach, mushrooms, and red & green peppers
1 cup mixed melons & berries
water

12:30pm lunch
4 cups romaine salad with 6oz chicken, mushrooms, bean sprouts,
tomatoes, and red peppers with oil & vinegar dressing
water

7:30pm dinner
3 cups romaine/spinach salad with cherry tomatoes, mushrooms, goat
cheese, sea salt, pepper, and organic garlic powder with oil & vinegar
dressing
easy italian chicken & broccoli from menu
1 cup sauteed green beans seasoned with sea salt, pepper, garlic powder, and italian seasoning
1 cup tea
dessert was 1/2 cup mixed blueberries/raspberries

~michael